Exactly What I'm Feeling Right Now

(lyrics of Welcome to My Life by Simple Plan) Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don't belong And no one understands you Do you ever want to run away? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud That no one hears you screaming No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels alright You don't know what it's like to be like me To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked When you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Do you wanna be somebody else? Are you sick of feeling so left out? Are you desperate to find something more Before your life is over? Are you stuck inside a world you hate? Are you sick of everyone around? With the big fake smiles and stupid lies While deep inside you're bleeding No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels alright You don't know what it's like to be like me To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked When you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life No one ever lied straight to your face And no one ever stabbed you in the back You might think I'm happy But I'm not gonna be ok Everybody always gave you what you wanted You never had to work it was always there You don't know what it's like What it's like To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked When you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like (what it's like) To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked When you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Welcome to my life Welcome to my life

what?!?!

Mmmm... Mmmm...
(humming sound)
i've been hearing dis humming sound
For 2 months now...
As my mind inch away from reality
My brain hums n whirs
running only on fumes
Anticipating d moment dat everything will just fail
need to sign... Chico n delamar... The mummy... Mmm... Ma'am! What???
Can't keep myself from zoning out
I’m sorry. I’m really sorry…

Too young

they try to tell us we're too young....
(a line from the song Toyang of Eraserheads)

am i asking too much?
working your @ss off

wanting to have more...

striving to be more...

being more than what you can be...

giving more than what they expect...

caring more than what they expect...

until you find yourself at the highest peak ...

then what?!?!

where to go now?

wait one minute child... you're just plainly too young to get on the clouds...

tom.

How i really wish to sleep all day under a tree by the seaside and think there's no tomorrow but going back to reality... i still have to work, and be slave to every @sshole to be able to do the thing i wish later.

frustrated

it's been 2 years...

2 years of gruelling work... and the question comes.

"why the h3ll am i doing this???"

things went by fast. i'm not sure what happened.

one moment i was up the stage accepting my fake rolled up diploma.

another moment i was sitting outside an office, fully dressed, sweaty palms,

with sample questions running through my mind.

next moment, i was on a roll.. everything was going my way.

the salary, the boss, the job.... praises everywhere from everyone.

i didn't mind the extra work, i didn't mind the extra hours

suddenly, i just realized that all the work, the hours, the blabberings of angry clients, and the backstabbing colleagues aren't just worth it.

or is it?

i don't know. i don't think i'd ever know. i just know that i'm tired. i'm tired and i'm 24. is it normal to feel tired at 24?