what?!?!

Mmmm... Mmmm...
(humming sound)
i've been hearing dis humming sound
For 2 months now...
As my mind inch away from reality
My brain hums n whirs
running only on fumes
Anticipating d moment dat everything will just fail
need to sign... Chico n delamar... The mummy... Mmm... Ma'am! What???
Can't keep myself from zoning out
I’m sorry. I’m really sorry…

Too young

they try to tell us we're too young....
(a line from the song Toyang of Eraserheads)

am i asking too much?
working your @ss off

wanting to have more...

striving to be more...

being more than what you can be...

giving more than what they expect...

caring more than what they expect...

until you find yourself at the highest peak ...

then what?!?!

where to go now?

wait one minute child... you're just plainly too young to get on the clouds...

tom.

How i really wish to sleep all day under a tree by the seaside and think there's no tomorrow but going back to reality... i still have to work, and be slave to every @sshole to be able to do the thing i wish later.

frustrated

it's been 2 years...

2 years of gruelling work... and the question comes.

"why the h3ll am i doing this???"

things went by fast. i'm not sure what happened.

one moment i was up the stage accepting my fake rolled up diploma.

another moment i was sitting outside an office, fully dressed, sweaty palms,

with sample questions running through my mind.

next moment, i was on a roll.. everything was going my way.

the salary, the boss, the job.... praises everywhere from everyone.

i didn't mind the extra work, i didn't mind the extra hours

suddenly, i just realized that all the work, the hours, the blabberings of angry clients, and the backstabbing colleagues aren't just worth it.

or is it?

i don't know. i don't think i'd ever know. i just know that i'm tired. i'm tired and i'm 24. is it normal to feel tired at 24?